NaPowriMo Day 4

NaPoWriMo Poem 4


#metoo

I thought he was funny but ugly,
would I fuck him under normal circumstances?
Would I even acknowledge his ugly existence if he wasn't this big celebrity?
No, I wouldn't let him touch me under real life circumstances.
But these are desperate times,
and desperate times call for desperate measures.

I rehearsed my part,
and dressed up for my role.
A seductive vixen:
funny and confident,
all I need is a good hook up:
connect me,
patron me,
sponsor me.
get me into your projects,
give me screen time,
a comedy special that streams on all platforms,
all I need from you is to hook me up,
I'll do ANYTHING!

After the show/after hours,
he asked us to go up to his hotel room.
I pause in my mind,
I think about what will happen next: Sex.
I am ready to do whatever it takes.

I've been drinking,
enough to get me tipsy,
enough to gain more courage,
enough to do this chilled.

He's inebriated,
he's funnier than on his show,
he says he's gonna jerk off in front of us.
"Do it!" she said breaking out in laughter...
He pulls his half flaccid cock out
and proceeds to agitate it.

I felt curious, disappointed and mad,
followed immediately by a sense of relief.
We laughed at him,
made fun of his dick,
humiliated him,
and then left.
The elevator carried us
under a could of laughter
what a fun night this was!

The next day,
I was grateful that I didn't have to take my clothes off.
Days went by, no gigs, no calls, no nothing.
My friend never quit her day job as a teacher,
she never got gigs calls back either.
I had to find a real job,
little by little I had to go back to reality.

Was I blacklisted?
I kept trying to make it,
but no one would call me back after the auditions.

The rage began to grow,
in my head I kept harboring
so much for him,
his success and his ugly flaccid dick.

Is not fair that he gets to do whatever he wants,
While i am here in the gutter.
I bet that if I had suck his dick that night
things would be different,
I'd be on his level in comedy.

You know what?
I'm throwing him under the bus,
I'm not taking this laying down,
Wat he did to me was wrong!
H disrespected me!
And now he's gonna pay for it!

Let me insert my story into the #metoo and wait.
I got the spotlight!
I got him in a lot of trouble!
But still no gigs.

He's still producing great shows,
and I'm still here.
with the constant reminder
of that night when I yelled for him to:
"Do It!" after he asked us
if he could take his penis out to
masturbate in front of us.